Showing posts with label Noah. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Noah. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Dear Noah {TEN}

 I started writing this on the night before you turned 10.  And I finished it nearly 9 months later.  Because that's the way things go when you are the firstborn of five kids.  You just have to wait.  A lot.  Which is a sacrifice you know well.  But the length of time that it took me to write these words doesn't make them any less true... or necessary!  I love you buddy... at any age!



Dear Noah,

How is it possible that you are Ten?

A full decade.
Two hands full of fingers.
DOUBLE DIGITS.
Over half of your life at home; as a child.

Time moves swiftly and sometimes in my mind, I still think of you as being a small boy.  I have very vivid memories of you as a toddler and little boy.  The best and most vivid memories of all the kids.  After all, you were my one and only for nearly three years!  And we sure did enjoy that special one-on-one time; you and me.  It was so fun.  So special.  And that very fact makes you a little bit extra special.  Because you are my first.  And you always will be.

As you grow though, being the first comes with its own set of challenges.  I know you are feeling these challenges because Eight and Nine have been some tough years for the two of us.  You find yourself in the lonely role of being the oldest to four younger sisters.  And because of that very fact, it makes you feel a little less special.  Like I don't have as much time for you.  

And I guess in some ways, it's true.  We don't spend the same one-on-one time as we used to.  Not because I don't want to.  Just because I am outnumbered now.  Very outnumbered.  But trust me, I miss those times.  I want more of those times.  I need them as much as you do.

You also feel the brunt of the discipline because as the oldest, it feels as though we expect more from you. And I guess we do.  Not because we love you less though.  Just because we are doing our very best to teach you right from wrong and how to make good decisions and how to grow into a responsible young man.  It'a a big job we have as parents and because you are the first, we don't really know how best to do it.  We mess up. A lot.  And we don't always model the kind of behavior we expect from you.  We are a work-in-progress too.  But the reality of all of this is that we love you so much that we want the very best for you...and sometimes that means that we are "hard on you".  

But as you grow and we learn to navigate the sometimes rocky waters of these changes, here's what I want you to know, Noah.  What I hope and pray you will know.  What I need you to know.

You will always, always, be special.  
When you don't see the special-ness in you, it breaks my heart.
I wish you could see your greatness.
Your special-ness.  
I wish you could see all the reasons we love you so very much.

But now you are TEN... and 10 is an age where the opinions of your peers often carry more weight than those of me and your dad.  Or your grandparents.  Or of the people who care for and love you most.  

You worry now.  About what other people think of you.  Or don't think of you.  About whether braces will make you "weird" or if you will ever grow taller or if kids like you even though you aren't as good at soccer as some of the other kids.  You worry you aren't enough.  Aren't special enough.

But please hear me, son. 

You are.

You are special.  
Not just because you have blue eyes and blonde hair and are shorter than you would like and have a God given talent for golf.  

But because you are ours.  
Special because you were created for us.  
And us for you.  

You are special because you are made by God to be the one and only Noah Robert.  God Himself breathed His very own life into you and has a plan and a purpose for your life.  And that very fact makes you beyond special.

And YOU, dear Noah, are the one and only person who ever could have made me a mother and your dad a father.  
You are special, son.

And you are worth it.

You are worth every ounce of love that your dad and me have to give.
You are worth the arguments and tears and power struggles and the "its not fair's". 
You are worth the the effort it takes us to teach you and mold you and inspire you to grow up to be a kind and loving man.
You are worth the battles that Eight and Nine introduced to our lives.  And the ones that are sure to come with Ten and beyond.

You are worth it all!

And even though I sometimes miss the easier days when you were a toddler and it was just the two of us, I believe in my heart of hearts that God has great things planned for you and that the best of your days are yet to come.  

And you dad and me... well, we get to watch it all happen!  

Happy Double Digit Birthday, Special, one-of-a-kind, Firstborn Child of ours!

We love you so very, very much!

Monday, February 2, 2015

I Love Them...

I was reading my blog book from 2009; fascinated by how specifically I remember those moments as though they occurred mere months ago.  It is mind boggling that those words were written over 5 years ago...when I was a mom to only two kids!  I particularly loved reading this post about the little things I loved about my family.  So much so that I wanted to do it again!  It's harder to focus on the little things now that we number FIVE in children, but I love remembering the special little nuances that made each of these "littles" them in this time of their life.  So here is my quick list of little things I LOVE about each of my littles.  {My husband's list is 100% unchanged since 2009 except that he no longer has to pick up dog poo and he has more baths to give, more laundry to help with, and more reasons to forgive me for my increasing faults!}

I LOVE...


Noah Robert

I love that he loves golf.

I love that he makes eye contact with people when he speaks to them.

I love that he still wants me to tuck him in at night.

I love that he can make Lucy laugh like no one else can.

I love that he will occasionally join in the girls' "shows" by showcasing his breakdance moves.


I love that he eats nearly half of the hot lunches at school now.

I love that he gets 100% on all of his spelling tests and never studies for any of them.

I love that I am constantly complimented on his good behavior by teachers and his friends' parents.

I love that he still loves "Blue" and sleeps with him nightly.

I love that he is a loyal friend with a tender heart.

I love that I can make him smile when I act like a dork. 

I love that he is every bit as much a die hard KU fan as his daddy.

I love being one on one with him.

I love that he is a rule follower and a fact checker.



Emily Kate

I love her smile and that she still has her front baby teeth.

I love her nurturing heart and how well she cares for her younger sisters.

I love that she loves to shop with me.

I love her imagination and the gentle way she leads the younger girls in imaginary play.

I love that she loves to color and write letters in fancy writing.


I love the way she dances to music of any kind.

I love her intoxicating giggle.

I love her eyes and the way they sparkle when she is happy.

I love her quiet presence.

I love that she is so kind and the absolute best at sharing.

I love that she considers herself "sporty" but still loves to be "girly" too.

I love the way she is the creative force behind the little girls' fashion shows.

I love that she still lets me fix her hair...sometimes!

I love that she still sleeps with her "softie".

I love her pretty toes.

I love that she wants to read to me.


Molly Clare

I love that she loves unicorns and believes they are real.

I love her confidence and friendly personality.

I love that she dresses in costume more often than she dresses in clothes.

I love her voice and the funny way she tells stories.

I love that she asks me everyday..."what do I have today?"

I love the way she snuggles into my back when she sleeps in my bed.

I love the way she sings boldly in church.

I love how quick she is to forgive her little sister who routinely beats up on her.

I love her gorgeous, silky hair.


I love how she skips around the house.

I love that she says..."watch my twirl mama" at least once a day.

I love spending our special time together on Thursday's while she learns to read.

I love her pretty blue eyes.

I love that she has a "pose" for every quick snap of a photo.

I love that she runs to greet me with a smile after preschool.

I love that she is the first to volunteer to share the best part of her day during our dinner tradition and excitedly says "what about our days?!" the minute she is seated.

I love that she is happy almost all of the time.

I love when she answers me by saying "yes, your highness!"


Abby Grace

I love her huge brown eyes.

I love that she runs everywhere instead of walking.

I love that she loves Lucy so much.

I love that the way she copies everything her big sisters do.

I love that her ornery spirit.

I love that she secretly plays in her room before she goes to sleep, but after being tucked in.

I love that she still needs me to sing "Lead me Lord" to her at bedtime while she eats her "pouchies".

I love that she puts an "ie" on the end of most words.  

I love that she wants her hair fixed in "piggies" and "ponies" to match her bigger sisters.

I love that she consistently puts her shoes on the wrong feet.

I love that she likes to sample my perfume and my makeup... even though I don't love the mess!

I love that she proudly spells her name.

I love that she is bold at home, but timid in public.

I love that her hair curls ever so slightly at the ends.

I love her squishy feet and her monkey toes that she uses to climb on everything.


Lucy Elizabeth

I love every single solitary thing about this Wonder of a Baby.

I love that she grins every time I make eye contact with her and speak her name.

I love that she takes a pacifier and even puts it in her own mouth.

I love that she sleeps like a baby... as in all night, every night!

I love her rolls upon rolls upon rolls of baby love.

I love her incredible cheeks.

I love her wide open, oval-mouthed grin.

I love her happy babble.

I love her long toes that remind me of Emily's.

I love her big chocolate eyes that remind me of both Molly's and Abby's.

I love that she reaches for me and knows my voice from any distance.

I love that she grabs my finger and holds it when she nurses.

I love that she lays her head on my shoulder when she is tired at bedtime and nap time.

I love that she wakes up happy and rarely cries to let me know she has woken up.

I love that she loves to splash in her bath and how she continues to be surprised by the splashes.

I love that the way she grins at her daddy as though she is flirting with him.

I love that she exists...that God surprised us with this amazing wonder of a baby girl!

I LOVE THEM ALL. 

ALL SO DIFFERENT.

ALL SO SPECIAL IN THEIR OWN LITTLE WAYS.

ALL OURS.



Monday, January 26, 2015

Celebrating the Little Things {Fall 2014}


 Fall is my absolute favorite. If only its lovely temperatures and fabulous colors would last longer.  There are lots of "little things" to love and document about fall, but there are also bigger things...like pumpkin patch outings and football games and fun decorations.  I realize that my "Little Things" posts have morphed and are now a combination of random "little things" - single moments captured on film- as well as "times to remember" - bigger outings deliberately documented.  Whether truly "little" or a little more significant, these documented "things" were the fabric of my life during these months.  And this life of mine, whether in little moments or more significant times, is something worth celebrating!


Celebrating the Little Things
{Fall 2014 Edition}

{Bobbed Again}
Just in time to go back to school, Molly made the decision to chop her hair again.  This decision was completely independent of my love of little girls and bobbed hair.  One of her best little buddies was diagnosed with cancer in late summer and bobbed off her own hair in preparation for her chemotherapy that would eventually cause it to all fall out.  Molly decided that she wanted her hair to "be short like Liz's".  She was resolved in this decision and cut at least 4 or 5 inches off!

{Short & Sweet Piggies}
Molly's piggies are back to the short, but ever so sweet, variety!  I actually heart short piggies more than long piggies...especially at dance class with big pink bows!  Does it get any better?!

{2 Parents + 2 Kids = EASY Vacation}
Wow!  Traveling - or doing anything for that matter - is so easy with only 2 kids!  Vance and I got to take Noah and Lucy on a short 2 night trip to Kansas City for an appointment Lucy had at Children's Mercy.  It was heavenly.  So much fun.  And SO easy!  Noah got to spend the night and day with his friend that had to move from Wichita to KC. They reunited as if the last time they saw one another was last week; not last year!  The next day we went to Lawrence for the football game.  It was another glorious Fall day on the KU campus... perfect for having a baby at a football game...she slept through the entire thing!  We came home refreshed instead of exhausted because 2 parents + 2 kids = EASY and fun getaway!






{Girly Room}
In anticipation of Lucy's birth, we rearranged the sleeping arrangements.  Again!  We had no choice but to say goodbye to our playroom and transform it into a room for Emily and Molly to share.  It was time.  Prior to the move, Emily was sleeping in a toddler bed (at age 6!) and Molly was sleeping in a crib (at age 4!).  The room is still a work in progress, but I had great fun shopping for and decorating this little girly room with a vintage theme.  The quilts at the ends of the girls' new (age appropriate!) beds are quilts from Vance's grandmother.  The quilts hanging on the ladders belong to the girls and have been made for them by their grandma (YaYa) and their Aunt Toi.  The doilies hanging as buntings are a mix of my grandma's and others purchased from antique stores.  The embroidery hoops are not complete.  There are more to be assembled and hung.  I just haven't finished it yet.  But it's still adorable and fits them perfectly...even if it's not quite complete!



{Party of 7 in Dallas}
Shortly after school started, we pulled the kids out again...to travel to Dallas for the Regional Finals of the Drive, Putt, and Chip contest.  We went a few days early so that we could (attempt to) enjoy a little mini vacation while we were there.  As should be expected, things didn't quite go so smoothly (Emily puked the entire drive for starters!), but we still managed to do a few fun things on what would be our first vacation as a family of SEVEN!




{Playing Makers}
Molly and Abby sometimes have a harder with imaginary play when their biggest sister is absent.  Emily is the one who is most creative and comes up with the best situational imaginary play ideas.  But these two...they have been engaging in more and more imaginary play now that Emily is back to school.  And they creative skills are developing.  Like for instance, this one.  They are "makers".  As in..."they make things!".  


{Sunglasses for the Littles}
I'm not sure where she picked up the habit, but Molly routinely wears her sunglasses on top of her head...like a hair bow.  And Abby...well, she sometimes joins Molly in the "on top of the head" look, but most of the time, she is just trying to manage to get her sunglasses on the right way instead of upside down!



{Smiles for the Greats}
My sweet grandparents are no longer able to travel to Wichita.  My Granny is in a care facility and my Grandpa never leaves her side.  And so they don't get to see my kids as often as they used to, or would like to.  So we try to go to visit as often as we can.  We took a quick trip to say hi on Labor Day.  We didn't get to stay for very long, but we were there long enough for Miss Lucy to charm her great grandparents with lots of little baby smiles!  My Granny won't remember any of it because Alzheimer's disease has stolen her memory, but in the moment when Lucy smiled at her...well, her face shows how much she enjoyed that moment.  And so did I.





{Headstands}
Molly is a head standing maniac!  I can't keep she and Emily from doing headstands on the furniture constantly...even when wearing super inappropriate attire for such head standing!

{A Milestone: Altar Serving}
If Noah looks nervous, he was!  Although in the first picture, he was less nervous than he was 3o minutes prior to taking it... because he had just finished his first time as an altar server.  Father trains the 4th graders and they begin participating in the weekday school masses.  Noah was happy to get to do this with one of his good buddies, but even being with Gabe didn't totally kill his nerves.  He did great though!  How is it possible he is old enough to do this?  I can remember holding him in my arms at Mass, whispering in his ear, "the miracle is happening now" as the bells rang aloud.  And now... now he is the one RINGING those bells!  Time, please slow down.



{Bad Baby Hair}
Lucy's hair is in the stages of bad baby hair.  It starting rubbing off in the back, creating a landing strip of sorts.  As it has continued to rub and fall out, it has morphed into more of a samari-wrestler style.  In other words, she now only has one tuft of long hair right on the top in the middle!  These are definitely baby hair DON'Ts!



{Outdoor Help}
I had a few outside helper this year when I decorated the porch for Fall.  I'm not sure they got much accomplished, but they sure looked cute in their costumes and boots!


{Face Paint}
Where there is face paint, there, too, will be my girls.  They are all about the face paint.  They want it whenever and wherever they see it!


{Meet Unicorn Horn}
Molly has become obsessed with unicorns.  She 100% believes they are real and I'm not about to squash her dream of riding a "real unicorn" just yet.  One day when we were out doing some Fall clothes shopping, she spotted this unicorn horn on a headband.  It had to be hers.  And she proudly wears that horn everywhere.  To school.  To church (without me having to tell her, she respectfully took it off as she got to the alter for her communion blessing).  To restaurants.  To bed.  Everywhere.  All the time!  It is her signature.  And I adore it!

{This}

One of the benefits of having a baby in the summer is the lack of schedule and need to be up and around at a certain time.  It made it nice to just sit and let my new sleeping baby sleep on my chest.  But after school started, this became harder as my schedule was, well... a schedule.  But I still made time as often as possible to sit and savor this.  Even as I post this image I realize that my days of this are over as Lucy has already grown past this stage of sleeping so peacefully on my chest after she nurses.  This though.  This was great.

{Glorious Fall Days Outside}
We had a glorious Fall.  Gorgeous temperatures.  Knowing it would go by quickly, I tried to force myself to put down my "to do" list occasionally and take the time to be outside with the littles in the prime of the beautiful Fall days.  We visited a new coffee shop, went to the park with our friends, spent an afternoon at the zoo, enjoyed the butterfly house, and played at a local pumpkin patch on a day off from school with the big kids.


{Themed Fashion Shows}
This household sees many, many fashion shows!  Recently, the shows have morphed and have started to feature "themed" outfits, courtesy of Emily's imagination.  Sometimes just the costumes are themed (see cowgirl and bride on the right) and sometimes the combination of the two costumes is a theme (as in "circus act" - the superhero and the gymnast on the left) and sometimes their is an acting component that is the theme (as in "Under the Sea" on the bottom").  With or without a theme, these "shows" are childhood at its best. 

{Fall Decor}
Oh the Fall decor...my absolute favorite.  The colors.  The funky pumpkins.  The mums. The simplicity.  I didn't do much this year, but I loved what I did manage to do!


{Daddy Love}
No explanation needed.  Another Daddy look alike makes him very happy indeed!
{The Many Faces of Lucy & her Chocolate Drop Eyes}
Oh this one!  She is such a happy girl!  I didn't know babies could be this happy.  It took her a while to figure out how to smile (2 months), but once she figured it out, all I have to do is glance at her and her that tiny mouth centered in between those chubby cheeks opens wide into the best grin I've ever, ever seen!






{Baby Love by the Bigs}
There has not been a single ounce of sibling jealousy since Lucy's arrival.  Even with Abby.  In fact, I think Abby might be her biggest fan.  Actually, ALL the big kids are Lucy fans.  Whoever says that having more kids is tough on the older ones hasn't experienced my reality!  These big kids LOVE this little chunk of a baby love!


{Big/Little Sister Love}
Oh to have a big sister!  I am so happy that my girls have sisters.  I always wanted a sister.  One of my greatest hopes in life is that these girls will grow to be each other's best friends and supporters... just like they are now.




{Prayer Partners}
4 years ago, I gathered a very small group of women (most of whom I barely knew or didn't know at all) and began a ministry at our church called "Busy Mom's Bible Study".  We began meeting in homes and the group was focused solely on stay-at-home mom's.  Over the past 4 years, the group has grown immensely.  We now meet at the church in a large meeting room and have 2 groups; one catering to stay home mom's and one for mom's who work during the day.  I've remained the facilitator and attend both groups.  I'm proud of the growth of this group, but more proud of the relationships and the prayer partners I've developed because of it.  This group prays each other through lots of things.  Most recently, one of our members' daughter was diagnosed with kidney cancer.  Not only do we pray for this family regularly and visibly (see miraculous medals below!), but apparently our kids have picked up on the concept as well. One day after school, some of us were visiting in the parking lot and looked over and saw our kids, kneeling in the school's "prayer garden", praying for Liz.  They did this spontaneously and without suggestion.  It was remarkable to witness these little people engaging in their own form of prayer partners!



{This Face}
Oh this cute and ever so ornery face! Whenever this face is silent for more than a few minutes, I know I'm in big {messy!} trouble!

{Crazy Die Hard Fans}
Vance's title as most die hard KU fan may have been passed on to his son!  Despite freezing temperatures, this kid would not consider missing a football game or an opportunity to tailgate!

And on the topic of freezing temperatures, that's how Fall 2014 ended...with SNOW!  Farewell Fall, Hello Winter!